|I absolutely love this picture! Nicole and Toby always catch the great candid moments|
|This smile is what greeted me when I first saw her! Melts my heart!|
|Birth mama and birth daughter|
|her legs were so long and skinny! Kind of like a chicken!|
|Another facial expression that melts my heart. A sleeping princess.|
Kinley 4 months old!
Kinley 5 months old
The next visit was on Dec. 23rd. This was the longest I had ever gone without seeing my peanut. that 3 months was the hardest 3 months ever! I missed Kinley so much and I wanted to hold her and touch her soft skin. Her adoption was final a week or so previous and The LDS church has a tradition where babies are blessed. Kind of like a dedication in other religions. Toby couldn't bless her until the adoption was final so they did this shortly after. A baby's blessing is a mile stone in the LDS religion and family usually comes to watch and support. Toby and Nicole invited me to come to it and they allowed Grant to come because we had gotten engaged a few months earlier. I was so excited. I got to be in the same place as the 2 people I loved the most in the world. My mom and sister, Jaala, came as well. We walked into the church and I B-lined it to Kinley and her family. I hadn't seen her in 3 months! Tears streamed down my face! She looked so beautiful in all white! I was over come with so much happiness and peace! Kinley was supposed to be with the C family.
Another reason this visit was so special was because Toby and Nicole's parents and siblings were there. I had never met their family before and it was so amazing to feel welcomed by their family. It gave me such peace of mind knowing the C family was comfortable enough to have me meet their extended family. I first met Toby's dad, who is also the bishop of their ward. He gave me the biggest hug and whispered in my ear 'Thank you for Kinley. Our family is so happy and complete'. Him and I started crying. I can't tell you how amazing that moment was. It really hit me that I didn't just complete the C family, but I gave their parents a grand daughter, their brothers and sisters a niece and their nieces and nephews a cousin. I preceded down the line and met Toby's mom, brothers, sisters, Nicole's mom and dad, who also gave me huge tight hugs and lots of gratitude, and then also I met Nicole's siblings. I couldn't tell you any of their names and nor could I ever recognize them in public if I ever was in their presence, but all I can say is that I loved all of them! I made sure I gave them a hug instead of a hand shake. I have to love them, they love my kin as their own, and for that, I love them dearly. It was so fun to hold Kinley during the church meeting. Even though she slept most of the way through it, I loved having her in my arms. The blessing, that Toby gave her was beautiful. I thought I would be so sad that she no longer had my last name, but instead I felt so much peace. Her new last name fits her better than Gladden, I thought. Listening to his blessing to his and Nicole's daughter was nothing but happiness. I mean, it always tugs at my heart that I can't be Kinley's mom, but I couldn't have picked two better people to fill in my spot.
|Can you see why I started bawling when I saw her? she had grown SO much in that 3 months!|
|I love those lips|
|My sister, Jaala, and baby K:)|
|My mom and Kinley|
|The C family and I|
|The new and improved C family|
|My two favorite ladies|
|Gahh that face!:)|
After church, they invited us to come over to their parent's house. My mom and sister had to get back to Colorado, so just Grant and I went. We just went over and spent more time visiting and Grant and I spoiled her with Christmas presents. That weekend was probably the best Christmas present I could ever ask for. I had so much happiness. And I was so grateful Toby and Nicole were so open and welcoming us into their family and their private home!
|She enjoyed the wrapping paper more than the actual presents|
|Birth mom and Birth daughter again|
|she fell asleep|
|and woke up still happy|
|I love elephants so I got her a Dumbo stuffed animal when I went to Disneyland|
|she insists on eating her feet!|
|I think she kind of looks like Yoda here hehe|
|My mom made Taylee some PJ pants and we got her a sister shirt!|
|This was a week before my visit at the court house getting all legal! AKA Kinley's 'Gotcha day'|
|this was a few days after our visit when Nicole and Toby went to the temple and Kinley was sealed to them and they became an eternal family|
Nicole Face Timed me so I could watch Kinley eat baby food for the first time! It was so cool to be able to experience that with them!
Kinley 6 months old
Kinley's 6 month mile marker is significant because it is also my birthday! I love that we can share half birthdays:) It's crazy to think the next 6 month mile marker is her 1st birthday and my 20 1/2 birthday!
Kinley 7 months
|So crazy that she can sit up!|
|Love that girl so much!|
|I love that Grant can love her also:)|
|One big happy family|
|I sent her a Valentines day care package with a bunny that I recorded my voice in. It said "Happy Valentines day pretty girl! I love and miss you so much" They sent me pics of her opening it|
|Big girl learned to crawl|